Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
As always, we appreciate your thoughts and prayers! Our thoughts and prayers are still with the Johnson family as they struggle with the loss of Joey...they have been so good to the Lauer family.
all our love!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
He says, "For various reasons, I have been thinking a lot about generous people. I guess that is because so many of you have been so generous to me and my family and to others in general. I realize that this generosity is in stark contrast to much of the world.
Generosity is defined as unselfishness, especially in the area of giving of your money or time. When you look up generosity in the dictionary there is a synonym for this word and it is, "magnanimity" (that is a mouth full :-) which means largeness and open handedness and being extremely liberal and generous of spirit.
The idea of living with an open hand is such a godly thing because it symbolizes the person that really doesn't hold onto the things that they are blessed with. The generous person understands that all good things come from God, and that everything belongs to God anyway. I understand this by first hand experience because when you've come to the end of yourself, as I have with this whole ordeal...and so many of us have experienced this as well...we realize that the truth is that nothing in this world really belongs to us. At the end, we are stripped of everything. So, since nothing really belongs to us anyway, we are just stewards of what belongs to God. It is right and good to live with an open hand...one that freely gives of what has been given to us. In so doing, our life becomes a lot bigger...it has a ripple effect. It multiplies itself and it touches and encourages and helps so many lives. What I realize is that if you live from that place of generosity, you receive generosity.
We often times act as if we have a right to be selfish and this is not right. You look at the example of Jesus who, unlike us and being God, actually had rights; however, He put those rights aside for our benefit. The scriptures teach us that Jesus, even though He was God, didn't consider His being God something to be held onto.
It says in Philippians 2, "Your attitude should be the same that Christ Jesus had. Though he was God, he did not demand and cling to his rights as God. He made himself nothing; he took the humble position of a slave and appeared in human form. And in human form he obediently humbled himself even further by dying a criminal’s death on a cross. Because of this, God raised him up to the heights of heaven and gave him a name that is above every other name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee will bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father."
I found the following scripture to be so applicable to our church:
"Now I want to tell you, dear brothers and sisters, what God in his kindness has done for the churches in Macedonia [or Hope Chapel, Kihei or anywhere in the world!] Though they have been going through much trouble and hard times, their wonderful joy and deep poverty have overflowed in rich generosity. For I can testify that they gave not only what they could afford but far more. And they did it of their own free will..."
2 Corinthians 8: 1-3
We love you! Kit, Shelly and Family
Sunday, May 25, 2008
We love you so much,
kit & Shelly
Saturday, May 24, 2008
kit & Shelly
Thursday, May 22, 2008
God isn't done yet...I am still here! So we continue to pray for His miracle and it feels so good to know you are praying right along side of us. The Lord will guide and lead us at each step from here on out. That's the thing about Abba, He is just full of all kinds of miraculous stuff!! May He richly bless you today.
kit & Shelly
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
In Service to Him and love to you all
kit & shelly
Monday, May 19, 2008
Shelly & I are trying to get out of this hospital, but I seem to have some infection or something going on in my lungs and increased fluid around my heart...please pray for that to go away, be cured, healed...if we can get those things under control we can take a step closer to Maui, to coming home. Thank you for all the love. I am glad to hear that God is using this time/trial to heal so many of us, to mature us and draw us close to Him...that from that increase in our relationship with Him we become better moms and dads, better sons and daughters, better brothers and sisters, better friends and make a greater impact on this world for all that is pure, lovely and good...in other words Jesus Christ...to the glory of God!
forever indebted to your love for us...
kit & shelly
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Two very special doctors have given Kit books to read.. Dr. Collis gave him this breathtaking book called Endurance -Shackleton's incredible voyage. I read it outloud to him and it was unbelievable what these seaman accomplished back in 1915..it is a true story... Now we are reading another book that another wonderful doctor who is a christian, Dr. Orimoto gave Kit named The Shack. Kit and I never take time like this back home... this has been a wonderful time.. reading these books together. Listening to the music together.. reading devotionals ..,of course... we are watching some basketball in the evening.. on the t.v. but very little.. there have been so many special times.. precious times and I thank you for allowing me this blessing to be here with Kit.
Well.. I am closing up and going to Petulla's condo to wash clothes. I haven't been there for 2 days.. sometimes.. I just stay and don't go home.. I wear the same clothes for 2 days.. don't brush my teeth... shower... who cares.... Kaiser hospital has been really good to us and the staff here is exceptional, but one thing that is not good... there is very seldom warm water for a shower.. I get little pitchers of hot water from the kitchen area and Kit pours it on himself...for weeks , he could not take showers, because of the port.. but it is out now.. and he is able to... that really makes him feel good.
Hopefully Kit will write the blog tomorrow. He really loves all of you .. your comments make him cry... they touch his heart. He is thankful for all of you who read this blog, who pray for him... and who write to him. Our family appreciates it too.
It is another beautiful day looking out 223 window..into the Moanalua
Valley.. and the vog is lifting.. The Petulla's condo is right on Waikiki.. unbelievable view... Kit will go crazy looking down at the water.. I am praying that we get there in a few days..the plan is to transition there .. a little before we go back to Maui.. just incase there are problems..Thank you again for your loving concern.. Shelly
Saturday, May 17, 2008
The plan is to finally get rid of this last infection and we seem to have it up against the ropes. My normal blood counts are getting stronger. If I can get stabilized then I would take a half step out of the hospital to a friend's condo for a week or two, depending on blood tests etc...If I remain stable, then I may come home to Maui. What I can do, or not do, how much I can do and for how long; all lie in God's beautiful hands. We would like prayer for the miracle, of course, and for blessings on all the steps back to Maui.
In love with you forever,
Kit & Shelly
Thursday, May 15, 2008
I know that we are all disappointed with the results of the bone marrow test which showed still... 60 per cent cancer cells. At a time like this it feels like our hopes and prayers have just lost all their air...like withered balloons, but I want you to know that God hears every one of your prayers, He weeps when you weep, He hurts when you hurt and He understands your heart, as you labor in prayer for me.
We often feel disappointed or perplexed by why God does not answer our prayers, since there are so many of us , offering up the same petition. It seems reasonable that God would leave me here to preach and teach since He has prepared me for that and even used this experience to fine tune the instument.. Yet, He did not answer our prayer the way that we wanted it to be answered , which could mean a couple of things. 1. He is waiting for me to go through all this medical treatment , walk out of the hospital, be pronounced uncurable.. and then He performs the miracle...2.He has other ideas , after all the Bible tells us that His ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts.. His thoughts are much higher than our thoughts, infact so high, who can fathom them...??When God has not answered the prayer of our heart , we have to keep in mind God's job.
He has to sustain and control a universe that is 156 billion light years in expanse. He has to allow for a mixture of human limited free choice, which results in sin and corruption and He is carefully moving every molecule and every event toward His measured end. To put it in laymen's terms, God is in absolute control ( He is sovereign)
So the reasons for miracles and the timing of them are therefore completely up to God.
This is what we need prayer for . I need to stop having infections. I need to have my own blood counts come up and if I can establish them at normal or near normal, I can come home to Maui, where I can spend some quality time with my family and maybe even give a message or two at church. I want you all to know whether you live a moment, or in to your 20's,40's , 60's or live to be 100, your life .. and everyday of it, was written down before you were created and the works that God had planned for you to do. It is not the length of your life , but the impact that you have on other people's lives, especially the impact of Christ upon their life. As you know, I have never been one to hold back on sharing the Gospel of Christ( perhaps too much so at times for some people). I have always had a great zest for life and for all of its richness and fullness. Some people would say that I have lived at least 10 lifetimes.. and it has been filled with great joy and wonderment. The Lord has blessed me with a beautiful wife, two God loving wonderful children who have filled my plate continually with unexpressable joys in the way that they do life.. they are such a blessing to me and they are a big part of my legacy. The Lord has blessed me with wonderful family members, friends, my church body and all the people that have been praying for me all over the world. So...I am content to know your love and I am not afraid to die and no Christian should be, because the sting of death has been swallowed up by the resurrection of Christ , our Lord and Savior!!!
I know that the thank you's seem redundant, but in this case... they deserve the redundancy... Your love, support and prayers have enabled us to get through this time as a family and you have been the lifters of my wings. Whether I live or die , I want to live or die as a warrior for Christ.
Love forever, Kit
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
I first want to say that I love all of you guys and I have felt your support undiminished , in fact, increasing in intensity as we move forward. As you know, we should get the results from the bone marrow test , some time today. It will probably be late today and it may even come back tomorrow. Shelly and I , with you, are waiting with expectant hope that God has done a real miracle and that the cancer has been sent in to remission in this last round of chemo, so just keep praying.
The last three days have been pretty rough on my body. I have the head to toe rash on my body and temperatures that continue to spike , nausea and the dry heaves. I feel like I am rounding third base, heading for home , with weak ankles, busted knees, torn ligaments and with my uniform flopping in the wind ...(and the hat was lost along time ago....) but regardless of all of that, Shelly and I continue to pray and the Lord never fails to give us the strength to hit the dirt and cross the plate. We know that no matter how it goes in this world , we are always safe in the kingdom of Heaven, so we praise God for all things. And..we can not praise God enough for the tremendous support , love and compassion that has been poured out on us through you. It is my sincere hope and trust in God that He will do this miracle and that I can someday soon stand before you and be with you and be able to see your children , and your grand children.. to be able to spend time with friends and family .. and the fellowship of our ministry that we will bring glory to the living God that all men and women would see HIM shine through us and He would draw them to Himself like a magnet. I see heeling's of marriages and of relationships and illnesses and I really see the power of God moving through the body of Christ as each of us draws close to Him. As each of us abides in Christ ,then His love abides in us and what naturally comes out of that is the stuff of God. You have certainly demonstrated the love of God , both communally and individually and I just want you to know that it pleases the Father. A very close friend of mine sent me a letter yesterday that made Shelly and me cry(which we often do while reading your letters and cards) . He said that he wasn't praying for God's will but that he was begging God to heal me. He also said that if God has a big refrigerator in Heaven, my picture would surely be on it. Wow!!! it is the same for everyone for those of you that love the Lord... you can be sure that your picture is pasted on that giant refrigerator. Never a day goes by that He does not look at it and say... "that is my boy !!!.. "or "that is my girl!!! "
Our job in life is simple ,really. We just do the things that Jesus has taught us to do and He gives us peace ,joy,fulfillment and blessings. God's job is everything else. ...now that should take a burden off your shoulders today.
We will get you the news as soon as we hear.. today.... or tomorrow.
From Shelly... I feel that to thank everyone , everyday for their love... seems redundant.. and almost not special... but my appreciation for all of you.. is overwhelming. I very seldom return calls ... but just know that I really appreciate you and your willingness to help etc.. but sometimes.. I just don't have the energy to make the calls. Some of you write the most touching cards and letters..just know that I love them and I appreciate all your wonderful words of encouragement. . Love, Shelly
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
He had fever spikes all last night (the highest being 103). The infectious disease doctors are looking for any possible infections but have not found any so far. His chest is clear. It is possible that the fever is just from the reaction.
The bone marrow test is scheduled for tomorrow at 9:00 am. We know you are all praying and are grateful.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Kit wants to tell you all that he is doing ok right now. He did have a reaction to the blood transfusion that they gave him yesterday (his blood counts are so low right now because of the chemo). and he did have a fever...please pray that it is only from the reaction to the transfusion and that he is not getting an infection.
The bone marrow test is on tuesday and we get the results on wednesday.
Always appreciative of your love and support,
Saturday, May 10, 2008
It's Shelly here… It’s May 10th..my first time at typing the blog. I know that Kit has talked about the view from 223, but it is unbelievable and I am putting a photo of the view on the blog. ( a day when there was a rainbow) We are so blessed to be in this room. It is a lot like the Iao valley view. Tomorrow is Mother’s Day.. and I want to wish all you mothers Happy Mother’s day .
I want to thank all of you for blessing me to the max…. by letting me be here with Kit . I do not worry about anything .. work.. bills …….because I have wonderful people who are handling all the little things that I would be worrying about.
Usually, I stay with Kit at the hospital until around 1 or 2 and then go home ( to Petulla’s condo) for the afternoon..shower, wash clothes, eat dinner, and maybe take a short nap and come back around 6:30- 7:00pm and then sleep in the same room as Kit. This time with Kit is very special to me. I am very thankful to be able to be here.
Marla called and said that a lot of you walked today in honor of Kit.. in the Relay for Life.. I can’t wait to see the t-shirts.. and Kit is humbled by this whole “run for Kit”.
Okay… here is the update on Kit.
His red blood cells and platelets are way down.. so he is having both transfused right now. He has not gotten an infection yet… thank God!!! He has gotten his rash back, but it is not itching. He does not have a temperature either.. He is tired and he has to stay in this room, because his resistance is so low and he could pick up anything so easily.
I think that you know that the bone marrow test is on Tues… not Monday…(Craig and Maria’s 60th birthday). Please pray for us to see God’s miracle. NO BLAST(Cancer) CELLS!!!!!
I want to thank everyone again for blessing us so much. When the stuff comes in the mail to us.. it is so much fun opening the cards and letters and reading them to Kit. When we read the blog and your e-mails that you write, we often cry our way through them. We love all of you so much and we are so thankful for each one of you that are in our lives. Thank you for loving our family in this way that I could never have imagined.
Friday, May 9, 2008
Many years ago, I lost a dear friend, Randy Insley, to cancer. My son, Mikey, now 21, was just a little guy. As we both prayed for Randy, I could tell Mikey's little spirit was concerned that Randy may die. I assured him that Randy had the gift of eternal life and that he wasn't afraid to die because he knew Jesus and had received the gift of eternal life. Mikey seemed ok with that and I would quiz him once and a while..."now Mikey, I would say, when we face death we don't have to be afraid because?"...and he would say turtle life daddy, Jesus gives us turtle life!...I thought it was so cute the way he said eternal life because it sounded like turtle life. Then quite sometime later out of the blue he said, "daddy when I die and go to be with Jesus in heaven is that when I get the turtles?" Ever since that moment, the honu, the turtle, has become a symbol of the purity and innocence of a little child's heart to me and the great promise of God. In a child's heart the really "big things" become small and the small things like little diamonds embedded in a huge mountain become the stuff of "turtle life." May you live today and everyday involved with all your heart in God's "little things."
Your prayers, e-mails, blog posts, gifts, support, love, care, compassion and most importantly...the demonstration of your persistence...storming the masters house...wow! And Lord taught that as we are persistent, the master gets up and gives the beggar bread! He is my bread of life...I am holding on with all of you to God's promise...He spoke to me and set His bow across the sky. I rest in Him.
I can't give back to you anything in comparison to the love you have poured on me and my family. But, this is actually good...because it humbles me...and as we know then He comes and lifts us up. So...from one completely broken man, but not crushed... I am sustained and protected by His love which flows though you to me.
In His peace forever
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Another day of being sustained by God upon your prayers! I am so blessed these last few days with some strength, no sickness/infections, food tastes good even...but best of all I have a sense of incredible closeness to you and God. As mother's day approaches I am reminded of the heart of a mother...naturally self-sacrificing, looking to the concerns of her loved ones above herself...a mother just exudes the love Christ has for us. I think the fullness of a mother's love is never truly appreciated until our own experiences in life become deep enough to really see her inner beauty. Sometimes we strain at a picture of a mother or loved one or a friend in a season of God's preparation of the beauty God is working on just beneath the surface and if we are not patient with our loved ones, forgiving and compassionate, we can turn away with the image of that beauty concealed and miss the revealing of the work God is really doing. Let me put it this way...I have been afforded a 7x7 window out of my hospital room that looks out and up into the Manaloa Valley...this is an extreme blessing to me for the valley holds many wonders, in fact, treasures are everywhere I look. One of the treasures is a special species of eucalyptus tree. Out of over 700 species of these trees, originally from Australia, Hawaii has developed its own unique species. It is called "rainbow eucalyptus" and oh how appropriately it is named. At times the ordinary outer bark peels back to reveal an explosion of brilliant rainbow colors that are a delight to behold. The curious thing is that the rainbow bark is not always fully exposed. In fact, at times the bark seems ordinary, dull, anything but brilliant and beautiful. This is a lesson for us. Sometimes our moms may not seem to be all that beauty and brilliance...sometimes our friends let us down, sometimes people are just in that place where on the surface they don't look all that beautiful...perhaps our relationships are strained, maybe they even seem broken, but that place is temporary...it's just God preparing the inner beauty of that rainbow eucalyptus, later to peel off that bark and reveal the marvelous treasure inside. Perhaps we should leave some room for moms and friends and loved ones to be prepared inside by God during those harder times in our relationships and perhaps it is better for us all to always look and remember all the times those moms , loved ones and friends have shined through to reveal those brilliant rainbow colors that enhance and enrich our lives daily. It is my prayer today that you will join me in giving thanks to all the rainbow eucalyptus trees out there in our lives, especially our moms.
You all continue to be such wonderful support and a source of inspiration to me as we wait upon the Lord to deliver His miracle! Again and again I never cease to be overwhelmed by your love and support. Every card, gift, letter, prayer, good thought, e-mail and blog post is noted and embraced with deep gratitude and a sense of more love, more concern and more care than any one man should ever have. I am steadfast in the Lord, living for His glory alone, for my life is His to use as He pleases.
Love forever in Him
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
We wait and pray together for the miracle from God. As a direct result of your prayers I have been spared of infection, also any heavy side effects of the last chemo. You have provided for me the great blessing of my wife by my side through this all...an indescribable gift. God is with me...you are with me...it is good. I pray your spirit has been lifted today as you see yourself through God's eyes.
Love to all and I am forever indebted to your love, care and compassion:)
Monday, May 5, 2008
The update remains the same...he is very tired, but there is no nausea and no fever. This is definitely a praise!
Much love to you all!! :-)
Sunday, May 4, 2008
you. He tells us,..."whoever seeks me with all their heart will find me..." Sometimes we are so weak we can't seem to find the strength to even seek after Him, it is in these times He seeks after us. He will leave the whole flock He tends to go after His lost little lamb. His love for you is un-ending finding it's full expression in the offering of His Son's life for yours. His gift to you of life everlasting, His provision to those who place their trust and hope in Him. It is my prayer for us all today that we would hold very lightly to those things temporary and passing, to the cares, the set backs, the ups-and downs of life's circumstances and that we would all hold on tightly to those things that are eternal. Forgiveness, love expressed when we consider our friend, our spouse, our child as more precious, more valuable then ourselves, our own needs. As we do this God meets our needs in a deep profound and supernaturally way. Don't manipulate, use, or ill think of anyone, do good to all, be bright lites in a world filled with incomprehensible darkness and pain. We must at times allow our protective bubbles to be burst now and then to know the deep treasures found only in a place of great need and the touch of the love of God. Again, no matter where you are, His love is there. Give your heart to the lover of your soul and He will empower your life today in marvelous ways and victories felt to just always be slightly out of your reach will be yours and when you face the end of self your hope will swell from the knowledge of the great gift of eternal life, the ultimate weapon against death and fear...we can rest our heads in the hands of the author and giver of life who freely gives new life now and forever for all who call on His name. I face the hope of more life here on earth as we wait for bone marrow tests May 12 and an answer on the 13th...regardless God has prepared my heart to live for Him with razor-like crispness and re-newed focus should He choose, but also to die a warrior for Him, leaving nothing on the table but being being thoroughly used up for His good and perfect will. May the God of all life bless your life today, encourage, even re-create you, give you power to overcome, victories, a sense of great value and worth...for you posses the ability to reflect His divine glory. Go for it! My love for you can not be expressed in words...so I pray God's Spirit presses this love into your hearts for me.
On behalf of myself and my family...inexpressible gratitude for all the blessings you have poured out.
In my deepest sense of love
Saturday, May 3, 2008
There are no blast cells noted in the circulating blood, but last time the chemo did that as well.
So, we need to pray that the treatment works in the bone marrow and also for no infections. Again, the test will be on May 12 and we should get the results on May 13. My dad has no fever and no nausea still...thank you for praying!
My dad has a friend that teaches 5th grade in CA at Cherrywood school, and he had his students write letters to my dad...and they were beautiful letters. They showed concern for someone they didn't even know. My dad told me this morning what he wanted me to write was that we all need to remember the value of friendships especially during difficult times.
love to all!