Yesterday Shelly and I traded places as ''she' suddenly got cold chills and was getting sick. I was feeling good and here is my wife now, my life partner for over 38 years who married me for better or worse and now was suffering the "worse" part...the one for two months who has been holding my barf pans up under my chin as my body heaved the residue of the heavy chemo treatment and antibiotics chasing down unknown infections...every pain of my body she to writhed with me as we moved for these last two months through what seemed like at times a torture that would never end and crying together to God for help and experiencing wonderful moments of great experiences of God's power and instant touches of mercy, grace and revelation...Shelly...this wonder woman...this fully mature, fully blossomed woman of God...from a little innocent 20 something girl carrying a sun flower for a wedding bouquet, lover of flowers...this mother of the two most beautiful children on earth, she calls me "daddy"... her dad died at age 3...she lost her twin at age 36...she is so innocent and soft on the outside...like a tender, beautiful flower, but inside she is a woman of steel, unbend able in her faithfulness..naturally other centered, the closet thing to Jesus I know...and wow...she is my wife...it's like I won the wife lottery...God knew exactly what He was doing! Here she is, every night suffering alongside me...she is exposing herself everyday to every bug and disease known to man...she is like father Damien, her love makes her fearless...now her body begins to shiver...my heart leaps in response..we get her warm blankets wrap her body as she has wrapped mine so many times when the chills come...she experiences an immediate new found affinity for those warm blankets (heat transfer...the only thing that really brings comfort from the chills)...I wrap her tight and hold her that my body heat would also help, the same act of love she has given to me dozens of times . Today Shelly is feeling better...she got a lot of sleep...she is with me now...we are preparing to leave the hospital...maybe tomorrow...to go and stay at our friend's condo near Diamond head...it is kind of a half step toward Maui...pray for us to help make it back home...there is more too it than just jumping on the super-ferry...but with your prayers and God's covering we can do it...the doctors are helping us in our cause...weaning me of the drugs and making an exit plan for me. The staff here at Moanalua Kaiser has been phenomenal...the nurses...oh my ...what special instruments these woman and men are...including all the aides...we have been here so long we know everyone by name, many of their personal stories, their lives and struggles and of course their spiritual temperatures...as they are taking my temperature...the Holy Spirit is taking theirs and revealing to me clues of their prayer needs...so many of these guys are believers...even many of the doctors and we have had some wonderful fellowship...others are not in relationship with the Lord and these the Spirit is moving on...for example one of the techs that images my major organs I have gotten to know some of her "story"...and in a two step process God had me leading her in a prayer to receive Christ and really commit her life to Him...it was awesome to watch the Spirit at work. I look at my body...I came into this hospital a vital, strong 60 year old and in 2 months my body has atrophied 20 years...I am a scaly lizard, with no thighs just bones and no bi-ceps just extra skin, but as the outward man perishes the inward man is being re-newed, empowered and fearlessly endowed with the ability to ask tough questions directly to human hearts...each person I meet is challenged by the Spirit of God in some unique way specifically designed for them and their relationship (or lack of one) with the one that created them...I just follow orders! Your love, support, prayers, encouragement, cards, gifts, letters...are empowering Shelly and me...we weep a lot as we read your words to us but we are strengthened...you guys are with us and part of the ministry God has created for us through this trial. It has been a great pleasure serving Him and our loved ones...we pray you are continually blessed! You have touched our hearts so deeply and Shelly and I love you!
In Service to Him and love to you all
kit & shelly