This is the third time that I have tried to send a message out to you guys. The first one I wrote and when I went to send it.. I lost the whole letter. Shelly typed the second one and the same thing happened again. Now.. this is the third time, I am dictating to Shelly, and hopefully, we will get through to you this time.
I know that we are all disappointed with the results of the bone marrow test which showed still... 60 per cent cancer cells. At a time like this it feels like our hopes and prayers have just lost all their air...like withered balloons, but I want you to know that God hears every one of your prayers, He weeps when you weep, He hurts when you hurt and He understands your heart, as you labor in prayer for me.
We often feel disappointed or perplexed by why God does not answer our prayers, since there are so many of us , offering up the same petition. It seems reasonable that God would leave me here to preach and teach since He has prepared me for that and even used this experience to fine tune the instument.. Yet, He did not answer our prayer the way that we wanted it to be answered , which could mean a couple of things. 1. He is waiting for me to go through all this medical treatment , walk out of the hospital, be pronounced uncurable.. and then He performs the miracle...2.He has other ideas , after all the Bible tells us that His ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts.. His thoughts are much higher than our thoughts, infact so high, who can fathom them...??When God has not answered the prayer of our heart , we have to keep in mind God's job.
He has to sustain and control a universe that is 156 billion light years in expanse. He has to allow for a mixture of human limited free choice, which results in sin and corruption and He is carefully moving every molecule and every event toward His measured end. To put it in laymen's terms, God is in absolute control ( He is sovereign)
So the reasons for miracles and the timing of them are therefore completely up to God.
This is what we need prayer for . I need to stop having infections. I need to have my own blood counts come up and if I can establish them at normal or near normal, I can come home to Maui, where I can spend some quality time with my family and maybe even give a message or two at church. I want you all to know whether you live a moment, or in to your 20's,40's , 60's or live to be 100, your life .. and everyday of it, was written down before you were created and the works that God had planned for you to do. It is not the length of your life , but the impact that you have on other people's lives, especially the impact of Christ upon their life. As you know, I have never been one to hold back on sharing the Gospel of Christ( perhaps too much so at times for some people). I have always had a great zest for life and for all of its richness and fullness. Some people would say that I have lived at least 10 lifetimes.. and it has been filled with great joy and wonderment. The Lord has blessed me with a beautiful wife, two God loving wonderful children who have filled my plate continually with unexpressable joys in the way that they do life.. they are such a blessing to me and they are a big part of my legacy. The Lord has blessed me with wonderful family members, friends, my church body and all the people that have been praying for me all over the world. So...I am content to know your love and I am not afraid to die and no Christian should be, because the sting of death has been swallowed up by the resurrection of Christ , our Lord and Savior!!!
I know that the thank you's seem redundant, but in this case... they deserve the redundancy... Your love, support and prayers have enabled us to get through this time as a family and you have been the lifters of my wings. Whether I live or die , I want to live or die as a warrior for Christ.
Love forever, Kit